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Back to the Ordinary From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (136 days old)

My self-imposed exile is almost over. Next week I return to school for the first time in almost four months, and I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't the least bit nervous. There will be the unavoidable q… more

Civilizing Rituals From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (178 days old)

Like walking a tightrope across two skyscrapers after downing a bottle of bourbon. No one cares, and who can blame them? When the symptoms are always the same, how many variations can you expect words… more

This Needs a Little Salt. From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (182 days old)

I have half an hour to write this. Not that there's anything of particular importance happening at ten. Just time for the next movie on channel 5 to tide over the next couple of hours on another Satur… more

The Lonely Hunter From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (215 days old)

Too early. I shall wait. I waited but nothing came, so I left. Took the escalator down, down. I left the building and crossed the road. Still early, but I enter anyway, I have naught else to do be… more

Hideous Kinky From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (218 days old)

Got precious little done today, but little is better than normal, if you consider I've hardly emerged from beneath my sheets in the last week. I've started on a new book- reading, not writing- and its… more

Bad Writing From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (219 days old)

Let's see. I have nine weeks ahead of me. What can I do in nine weeks? I'm afraid of setting goals cos I tend to let whole days slide. Like today. I was determined to get something done today yesterda… more

On this, A Saturday Morning From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (246 days old)

Saturday morning. The neighbor's son getting married today. I was only told this morning. Same age, 29. Funny, I never even noticed him before with a girl. But then again, when have I actually paid an… more

Don't Come This Way From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (248 days old)

I went to the washroom. It was empty. I was grateful. I went to the farthest cubicle and locked the door. Then I cried. Quietly. When what I wanted, what I needed, was to howl. A primodial scream, an … more

Unsuitable Vehicles From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (249 days old)

Back at school and immediately the demons return with rejuvenated fury. What passed before in near silence now seem incapable of moving without piercing cries. I howled in anguish yesterday but all t… more

Riding on the razor's edge From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (254 days old)

It has begun. A reprieve at last, and arising from such dire circumstances. I can hardly believe what happened a fortnight ago did truly transpire. Leaning my head against the window, my mum driv… more

Snide Remarks From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (272 days old)

It's not easy, living these mood swings. Mostly it's hard not to talk about them without appearing needy of attention. Please, this isn't me. The real me is nothing like this. You'd like the real me. … more

Despair From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (283 days old)

I don't want to do this anymore. It is altogether meaningless to me. I nod and nod as though my head were attached to a spring. I sit here in my cubbie hole and know I should be doing something but I … more

Yawning Marathon From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (290 days old)

Energy levels are so low… I can’t seem to bring myself to wakefulness. It’s a bad day for it too, with classes till 4:30pm today. It’s exhausting enough putting on a chirpy front for a couple of hours… more

Weekend Ramblings From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (296 days old)

It's gonna be a long day. I've got only one class today, but I'm supposed to assist in a Batik workshop for some kids visiting from China, plus there's a Parent-Teacher Meeting this evening for the Ye… more

Not What It's Cracked Up to Be. From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (303 days old)

Good morning. I am at my desk in school. It’s a quarter past nine and I’m having a coffee. Obviously I am not doing any work, as the existence of these lines can attest to. I am simply not in the mood… more

One up at the dinner party. From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (311 days old)

1 Jan 2009: 1. Kick ass at work. Enough is enough. I am brilliant, but I've been inconsistent thus far. There is no reason for me not to take down 'em rockets in flight at will. Enough is enough. I… more

The first two of three parts From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (319 days old)

i The monster, fire-breathing gargoyle, slain, fallen idol into its own sulfurous smoke, and lifting my head above its evil stench, at last I'm see a former greatness smashed, in broken pieces, gr… more

Hang-over Sunday From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (329 days old)

Our new Year Ones will register this coming Friday and I've been tasked to speak for five minutes about the school's special art program. At least it's something to do... Strange, I've simultaneously … more

Solid Letter From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (331 days old)

I cannot have a conversation with my mother without it turning into a full-fledged war of words. I am smothered by all the accusations of ingratitude, insinuations of incompetence, silken sighs of res… more

K From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (334 days old)

K has a shelf of 91 unread novels. The books are ordered alphabetically by the name of the author. Here are some of the books on K's shelf: The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood, Tender is the Night … more

The Faux Rolling Stone Issue From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (340 days old)

It's been a good week at the record store. I decided not to get the Kings of Leon, though from the way I've been obsessing about it, I'd probably not to an "if" but a "when". I hate that good music co… more

Solitary Confinement From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (346 days old)

I am angry, frustrated, bitter, tired. I feel betrayed by the propaganda of my youth. I feel as though I was blindsided into leading this miserable, worthless existence. I am a passionate hu… more

If My Mother Had Her Way From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (353 days old)

I go to church every Sunday. I know a lot of people have problems with the doctrines of the Catholic faith but to those detractors, I simply shake my head and always think to myself, who am we to ques… more

Batoru Rowaiaru From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (361 days old)

One of those days when you feel as though everything that could possibly go wrong will. The phone rings and you know there will be nothing but ill tidings. I've switched it to silent mode but the mess… more

Call Me Irresponsible From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (366 days old)

Woke up, sent my nephew to school. On the way he told me, in that three-year old way of his, not to work so hard, to be home early, cos, in his own words, when he comes home from school, he "look here… more

Say You Say Me From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (366 days old)

I feel like a fool. To think, I used to believe that school was fun. It certainly looks more pleasant when you're a student. Rules are meant to be broken. Honest, they are. School sucks w… more

Bossa Nova From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (382 days old)

Some people are blessed with boundless energy. I am not one of them. I am easily tired, constantly sleepy, and forever bemoaning the fact that I can’t do whatever I want, whenever I want to- which is,… more

They are Coming! From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (385 days old)

I'm trying desperately to find my groove back, by which I mean the overwhelming desire to devour books as if my life depended on it. Lately it's just been so difficult getting my head into a good book… more

The Arrogant Bastard briefly returns. From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (387 days old)

It isn’t nine yet and I’m done for the day. How’s that for efficiency? Now if only there was a way I could sneak out of school and to the gym… I’m sitting in my oddly spacious cubicle (odd because I’m… more

I blame my present condition on success. From Constantino_Giraldez in V e r i t a s . S o p h i a . I u s t i t i a (392 days old)

How many more of these "what's there to say" posts am I gonna churn out? I'm completely out of whack, body and soul seem to be dislodged from each other, and my sense of humor is AWOL. I am so bored a… more